Feel pressed to do something about my Endometriosis though I’ve ultimately got to come to terms with the fact that this is something I will have to live with for life. The pelvic pains, cramps, gastric pain, bowel movement pain seem to be afflicting me more intermittently lately. Maybe due to my bad management of stress, unhealthy lifestyle and lack of sleep.
Inspired by the articles here to make better consultations with my gynae and seek alternative opinions and treatments. I have switched from Yasmin to Mercilon to Diane35 and can’t remember what else but what worked for me the last 2-3 years of treatment doesn’t seem to work as well now, ever since what happened last April. I get frustrated and helpless with the mood swings and crappiness of these symptoms. They are taking their reign over me insidiously. This is exactly what they call a chronic condition, I will need to learn to be stronger and live with that part of me for life.
Recently I’ve been reading Elizabert Gilbert’s “Eat, Pray, Love” religiously. It is one book that has accompanied me through the many days of toiling for the media fams and working on weekends. Also one book to pass on to girl friends to share. Find myself relating to the book very much. I do wish I could go away to an ashram and meditate and do yoga for some time as well (have been thinking about this even before I read the book). I just don’t know where to start. Like she says, you don’t “cherrypick” a religion or guru. Googled on Yoga events this year and thought of going on a yoga retreat but they are all rather costly. Nonetheless, I’d better start bringing yoga back into my life first. Going to start on her sequel “Committed” tonight.
This year, I want to “eat, pray, love”. I want to do more yoga, delve more deeply into selected interests, be more frugal and appreciative. I must try my best to find that balance for myself.
Ending with a quote from the novel:
Yoga is the effort to experience one’s divinity personally and then to hold on to that experience forever. Yoga is about self-mastery and the dedicated effort to haul your attention away from your endless brooding over the past and your nonstop worrying about the future so that you can seek, instead, a place of eternal presence from which you may regard yourself and your surroundings with poise. Only from that point of even-mindedness will the true nature of the world (and yourself) be revealed to you.
And another excerpt on a lighter note:
“He said, ‘Why do they make it so complicated in India with the meditation?’ He said, ‘I’ll give you a meditation. … Sit and smile,’ he said. Even smile in your liver,” Liz says. “Smile all the way through. Sit there and smile all the way through and see if that doesn’t work a little bit to start to change your life and cause a little revolution in your mind.”
Looking to the movie version of this book coming out in August this year!
